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Name: Joshua
Country: United States
State: Missouri
Metro: Blue Springs
Birthday: 9/19/1981
Gender: Male
Interests: God, people, family, music, sports, physical therapy, tornado chasing,Ireland, WRC
Expertise: being a bonafied goofball, knowing how to have fun, and most of all...being JOSHMAN!!!
Occupation: Education/training
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MSN: crackerjack1981@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  cracker_jack1981
Member Since:
11/5/2005
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|  Wow,
I'm only in the second week of 2007 and change is happening everywhere!!
First off, I am now running again. I'm doing rather well at it, I'm
currently running 2 1/4 miles in under 30 minutes, well more like 25
min, but who's counting. If you know me, I used to never be able to
run like that. I could barely run 2 laps around a track without
getting severly winded. Anytime I'd run a mile it would be in like 15
min. Now I can do 2 1/4 miles in 25 min. When i was in high school, i
had some kind of rythmic problem with my heart, so naturally i'd be
afraid to run. Now i can run 2 1/4 miles. Can ya tell i'm proud of
that accomplishment?!!! I owe it all to my Lord!!! Yahwea Rapha is my
healer!!! So that one thing that has changed.
Secondly, my
family is talking about ministry again!!!! I've been waiting almost 3
years to hear those kind of words come out of thier mouths. God is
truely in the process of restoring my family and renewing thier hearts
towards Him!! I love how positive things are sounding in my house
now!!!
Thirdly, things at church are booming!!! The presance
of God is getting more and more intense, and the expectation of the
people is rising because we are getting ready for something that is so
much bigger than us. People are going to be flocking those front doors
because they are hungry for more than what they've been getting. The
world feeds them junk, but God will give nourishment and health for the
body, mind, and soul!!!!
Fourthly, friendship are slowly
being renewed!!! The harvest is truely coming in. Some of these
friendship are with people I haven't talked to in like ages, i mean
since high school, which i mean is only been 7 years, and i know that
doesn't seem so long for some of you older people, but when you realize
that you are only a handfull of years from another milestone in your
life and God is calling you to higher things in life, 7 years begins to
look like quite a while!!! No matter i'm living til 120 great and
glorious years anyway!!! Yet i feel like i'm the most blessed man in
the world to have such awesome friends!!!
God is constantly
changing things around me and in me. Helping me to see things and
people through His eyes. Showing me that while life is short, there is
still much to be done, and not to worry about when it will be done, but
to just do it!!!!
Constantly changing in His presance,
Joshua | | |
| Wow ya all!!!
I tell ya what, God is so good!!! I was doing a
lot of thinking last night after service, and just letting God speak.
As i was praying, i saw 2 different pictures. The first one, was the
picture of a toilet being plunged. Now i know that may seem a little
weird, but when you think about it what's the one thing you need your
toilet to do? Flush!! Well it can't very well do that when things are
clogging the drain up. So you have to take a plunger and unstop it so
things can flow freely. I think you know where i'm going with this.
God really has a sense of humor when one of the things He's trying to
get across to you involves a toilet and plunger!!!
The second
thing God showed me last night was a picture of Him taking me and
plunging me deep into the deepest ocean you could find. I realized
what this meant immediately!!! The deeper you go into water, the
heavier it gets. That's why things can get crushed at the bottom of an
ocean because there's so pressure from the weight of all the water. I
was thinking about what Pastor Dustin said about God being so big, and
how the ocean is so big, that if i were plunged so deep into God, I
would die!!!
Ya know we all struggle with things. Yet
there is always one constant, and that is that passion never dies, it
only gets smaller. We are all passionate about something, but where is
our passion foccused on. I'll be honest. I get so irritated and angry
with myself when i see other people going after God with a bigger
passion than me, because i tell myself, "why aren't you that
passionate? Why are you letting others do your seeking for you? What
is wrong with you that you don't feel anything when the Presance of God
is currently moving?" I had to get that way with myself, because I
can't allow myself to miss what God is doing, and the change that He is
bringing, especially when i know that I need changed!! I need to be
changed today, even more than i needed to be changed last week, or even
yesterday!!! Because the change i expierianced last week or even
yesterday, does NOT do me any good on advancing HIS Kingdom today.
What I mean is I can't just live off that change only, i need to be
constsanly changed and renewed, otherwise I get stagnant and dirty,
just like religion.
I want the depths of my soul to be plunged
into the depths of HIM, so that when when there is nothing left, all
there is is the sincerity of my heart being expressed toward Him.
Ya know something interesting?! When John saw Jesus on the Island of
Patmos, he described Jesus' eye were flaming like fire. That fire in
His eyes burned up every trace of sin that would try to come in. John
fell as dead before Him. I believe we all have that fire in our eyes,
but how hot is it? The fire in the Lord's eyes must have been pretty
hot for it to burn up every trace of sin. My prayer is that the Lord
would stoke the fire in my eyes, so that when people look at me, they
would burn with passion for Him!!! Because it's not through my eyes
that I look, but through His eyes!!! Remember I have been plunged deep
so there is nothing of me left, only my sincerity for Him!!!
Currently being plunged,
Joshua | | |
| I
don't even know why I'm posting right now because I don't even really
know what to say. All I can say is that i'm beside myself. Over the
last month and a half, my heart has takin in so much, yet my mind can't
even grasp all the infinite things that God is doing. I have never
felt so undone in all my life.
Today
at church, Pastor Steve talked about how Abraham had faith before
ritual and that he was the father of faith, so that all of us who have
faith are now sons and daughters of Abraham. He talked about going to
Isreal and what's going to make the jew jealous of the gentile so that
they will see that the end is not near but that God is going to rescue
them if they would just call upon the name of Yahweh. Yet how is that
going to happen? Well in Psalm 105:38-42 it gives the answer. God
remembered the promise He gave to Abraham when the Israelites were in
the desert and He did miracles and signs and wonders for them. Well
that promise still stands today. We a people of faith have that same
promise, but it can't be dead faith, it has to have action behind it!!!
He
also said this, "Your destiny holds the destiny of others." In other
words what we do today with our faith will affect other in the future
or even today. It's not about me anymore, my life is not my own. Now
i know as a christian maybe i'm supposed to say that, but the question
is, do you really mean it?! Are you willing to let go of all your
dreams and aspirations for the cause of Christ? Are you even willing
to lose your own life if that is the position you were put in? I want
God's glory, but it's gonna cost me, maybe even my life. God had to
hide Moses behind a rock when His glory passed by because the glory
would have killed Moses if he'd seen the whole thing.
It's
gonna cost us if we want it!! If we don't want it, then it may still
cost us, because there are people out there that want to kill us
because we love the Jews and because we're christians. The only way to
stop this threat is to have the Glory of God in our lives, to be
carriers of the Glory of God.
Why
am I saying all of this? Is it just to get things off my mind and
chest? No, because this is stuck in my heart like a sword in a stone.
I'm saying all of this because i want whoever reads this to understand
that things are changing very rapidly and that every decision that you
have to make is crucial. Every decision you make will in turn effect
the destiny of others. So your life is truely not your own. It's like
you are responsible for thousands of lives of people you don't even
know. Heavy huh?
Now
ya all know why I'm beside myself, and i pray that ya all would get top
that place, cause it's not a bad place, it's just a more redefining
place.
possibly responsible for your destiny,
Joshua | | |
| I really shouldn't be surprised as i write this. Simply because God's
power is greater than any force on this earth. Yet as I think about
all that God has done in the last 48hrs, I can't help but stand back in
awe and amazement!!
Oh yeah, you'd probably like to know
what's going on. Well let me start from the begining. Yesterday
(Monday), I started my day off like any normal day at work. I go in at
around 7:30 AM, I put on Winds of War, and i pray until my clients
start coming in. Well one of the other christians I work with came in
to pray with me. So of course i'm like totally cool with that. So we
started praying for a little bit, and then she started pouring out her
heart to me about this new position that she has been put in at work,
and how she didn't know if she could do it. Before I could answer, the
other christian I work with came in, and all 3 of us started praying
for the day. We prayed for our clients, other co-workers to get saved,
Isreal, etc.
After the second lady left, I told the other
lady to wait, so i could pray for her. As soon as I started to pray,
the presance of God flooded that room!!! I started to pray for power
and presance in her life, and for authortity to walk in. Then I prayed
for the fire of God to consume her. As i was praying she began to cry
and almost fell under the power of the Holy Spirit.
Ok I
hope you guys are all still with me, cause it gets better!!! Later on,
the lady i prayed for earlier came in to help me do some stuff, and my
boss was gone that morning, so she was filling in for her. While she
was helping me i asked where our boss was and she told me that she was
at the doctor get a "lump" checked out. As soon as she told me that,
the first words that came out of my mouth were, "Well, We rebuke that
in the name of Jesus!" and she agreed with me.
Well then
today I started my usual thing again, accept this time it was a little
harder to get in the presance of God. I kept praying and praying and
praying until finally I stopped and started to declare who God was to
me. I started crying out his name, "Abba, Mighty God, My Everything"
And all of a sudden the presance of God again flooded that room. I
felt deep conviction come over me about how I can't have any trace of
fakeness in my life and that every moment should be real. If I'm not
real than how can I let the REAL GOD shine through me. If I want
darkness to flee so much, why do i not let all the light that is inside
me come out. That is why we get more of Him and less of us, so that
there is more light to shine out in this dark world!
Anyway,
so I had that on me all day which was cool, cause i never have been in
such deep thought over such deep conviction like that before. So when
my came in today, the first thing she said to me was thank you. I
said, "thank you for what?" She said, "for rebukeing it, it's all
gone, there's no trace of it!"
Later on, I found out that the
lady I had prayed for told her that she had told me about it, and what
I had done. She told me that my boss just was blown away and in awe by
that, because my boss has no family, or close friends, and was
surprised that anyone would do such a thing for her. My boss is not a
christian, and her views are totally different than mine on a lot of
things. What is so truely amazing is that the authority of God works
with every situation, no matter how serious. Yet we as christians
should never be surprised that this happens, because if truely believe
His Word, and we truely believe Him, then we walk in that authority
everyday of our lives!!!
Slaying every opposition and rejoicing in Him,
Joshman | | |
| Hi ya all!!
Wow,
God is so amazing!!!! Oh how I need Him everyday of my
life!!! I thank God for giving us a mediator. Because who could
stand with God Almighty alone without someone mediating for us, a
sinfull man who would die at the meer look from His eyes!!!
I am so truely gratefull for the Son!!! I love Him so much that I
can't even comprehend. I know now that the world is not
going to end but just the age we live in. In that I have hope, I
have peace and joy. I don't know if you all can understand what
exactly i'm feeling and expieriancing right now, but it's overwhelming,
exhilerating, and outstanding all at once!!!!
Life
is good, and because God created life and is the Life, I guess that
would mean God is good as well, but that's no transitive property
though, that's just truth!!!! (transitive property,
impressed?! look it up, then you'll get the joke!!!)
On
a side note, just for my own pleasure, the Chicago Cubs just finished
up a 4 game sweep of the rival St. Louis Cardinals!!!!
YAY!!!!!!! It's been the only good note for them all
season.
So
if you couldn't figure it out by now, I'm extremely happy and
joyous!!! Yet at the same time i am still grieved for Isreal, and
all the dealings over there. Only Yahweh God can truely deliver
them. My hope for them is that they will see that Jesus is
Messiah, and that they will never be destroyed again.
Still being mediated for,
Joshman
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